My friend

UGH! i really really miss my friend. I wish she never gave up on me. I realize that only once (at least that i've noticed) she lied to me.

It happened this past summer, I was having nightmares about her just giving up on me and getting tired of me, to the point where (surprise) she stopped being my friend. I told her about this nightmare, and her response to what i said was... well reassuring. "I don't drop friends; They drop me." I never forgot that. and now... welll.... now, i see that she was either lieing.... or changed so much that she decided that what she said wasn't worth it. ya know?

point is... she dropped me... she chose to not be my friend anymore by giving up. It's not like you can put a time limit on how somebody heals or changes! Ugh! some people may be like putty and change easily over a short amount of time... and others (me included) may be like granite. I remember hearing something (i think) da vinci said... or whoever it was who did the carvings out of granite.... anyway, he said, that he didn't sculpt the work, the work was already in the slab of granite he just helped it come out. Who is going to be my sculptor? who is going to help me get out of my granite coverings? because right now i have nobody...

My Best friend, she well she isn't my best friend anymore... but she gave up on trying to get me out of this granite... after one year she gave up. if people gave up after a year about, well about anything how would anything be accomplished?

supposedly she is moving out of her parents house this January, if she gave up on me after one year, i think she will be moving back home in about 6-7 months... ya know? because i dont think she can handle the real world... that is if she can't maintain her friends.