missing her and disliking her all at once

I really miss my friend, she used to help me through so much. but i've been thinking of the past things she has said to me. one of the more important things, we were talking about how she didn't have any real girlfriends, after a discussion of me dieing..., anyway, she didn't have any real girlfriends she could just go to and talk with about anything and how it was bringing her down. so i said to her, what about me? sooner or later, i'll be a girl? and what she said, Arg!, it made me so angry (but i couldn't really tell her that at the time, she was my best friend) she said to me, "We both know that will never be true." She never had any faith in me becoming a girl! There is so much i just want to say to her about that, now! I didn't realize that, at the time, she never believed that it was actually possible to change genders. I would always have a boy brain! Honey, i have never had a boy brain! UGH!

whatever, i have church in less then an hour, i gotta finish getting ready